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Thursday, October 20, 2016

Flying with Brenda Smith

Vinh Pham
Temporary states. I hear it that some are growing tired of waiting on those blessings to manifest. You have to realize that you are in a holding pattern. My office is moving to a different area in the same building. The space was originally leased to us, but before we could occupy that space the other tenants had to move out. We were able to move into a temporary space on another floor.

Now....over the weekend our original space was made available, ready, occupy. Now we are moving into our original space. It was not that the space was not ours. It belonged to us. They were not interested in keeping it...but because of circumstances the space that they were moving to got delayed. Saints....those blessings may be delayed, but they will not be denied. 

You have to wait. You do not know what is holding it up....but I know God promised it to you and He will always do what He said He would in His Word. Two offices could not occupy the same space at the same time.

God will give you your blessings when it is time to receive it. Ask yourself? Am I the one blocking my blessing??

Tuesday, October 18, 2016

Flying without the bracelet

It has been a few days since my last post. You can thank Hurricane Matthew for that. Well, maybe not all of that. I have been a bit busy. I have no complaints. I sold my house in South Carolina so I did not have to think about damage during the storm. I have not closed on my house in Georgia so again I did not have to think about damage during the storm. During most of the storm I was in Chicago to run the marathon so I was far away. My thoughts and prayers go out to those who suffered and still suffer from the storm.

When I discovered I lost my What if you fly? bracelet I was upset. When things seemed at their darkest I just looked down at my wrist and read those words over and over and over. I even got up several times at night to read them. I often just touched it. Just knowing it was there seemed to change my attitude for the better.

I am no longer sad due its disappearance. I have sold and bought a house, I have paid off a significant amount of debt (more to follow), I completed the Chicago marathon, I passed my Road Runners Club of America Run Coach Certification exam, I have no hurricane damage, I am healthy, and I have amazing friends. I think I am flying. No, I am flying.

Yes, I miss my bracelet and one day I hope to get another one. But for right now I take comfort in imagining that the bracelet is on the arm of someone who really really really needs it. I hope it helps her as much as it helped me.

Tuesday, October 4, 2016

Flying with the power of no

Adam Jaime
I have recently really learned the power of saying no. Saying no without feeling guilty. Saying no without changing my mind when others give me their advice solicited or otherwise. Most of the time I politely listen or at least pretend to listen. Other times I cut them off because my mind has been made up and I did not ask for a discussion. Believe it or not, I can think for myself.

I am learning to be very selfish with my time and energy. I should spend it where I want to using whatever system of priority I choose. Sometimes it is just as simple as I want to or I don't want to. Or now is just not the time for whatever for whatever reason.

Don't get me wrong. I am still a reasonably nice person. I will help anyone out if I can. The power comes from knowing when and if I can and how much I can. The power comes from not allowing myself to be sucked dry by doing things that do not add joy to my life. Things that are not required. Things that are better done by someone else. Things that I am not qualified to do. Things that I just don't want to do.

That frees me up to do other things. To do nothing. To do something. To do this or to do that. My choice. To not hold myself to someone else's standard. To spend more time developing my own standards and to live within them.

And the power of saying no leaves tons of opportunity to say yes.

Thursday, September 29, 2016

Flyiwnt with Brenda Smith

Benjamin Child
I can remember one Sunday we needed a ride to Church. Mama's ride showed up late at the house. He came and knocked on the door, and Mama answered and said Good Morning. 

The driver apologized for being late and said I can get you to Church, but you will be about five minutes late. Mama replied and said..."I thank you very much. But, I do not intend to enter God's house late. He has never been late coming when I called. He was not late in saving me and I owe it to Him to be on time." 

I, too, do not come to Church late! No Sir...I was taught early in life to be dressed and ready to step out the door in time enough to drive to Church and to be there on time. A Mama's Love it carries you for life...I arrive to my job on time because Jehovah Jireh is my provider, and He is never late.

Tuesday, September 27, 2016

Flying in miracles

Today is the last day in my Mt. Pleasant house. I am feeling some kind of way. I have lived right here for 20 years. Getting to this point was a challenge. Fortunately I had many miracles along the way. The first one was landing a job in Savannah about 4 years ago. I didn't even see the posting. A friend sent it to me. Fast forward 4.5 years and now I'm running the department!

My parents decluttered my house. Friends helped me pack. Other friends brought boxes. A woman I only knew from Facebook came over with 20 boxes, packing tape, labels, and helped me pack! My brother spent a week with me organizing and keeping me focus. My sister took loads of my stuff to her storage shed. And the list goes on.

Yesterday a friend made me an amazing lunch. And to top it all off, the agent for the people who bought my house stopped thanked me and gave me a rose.

I need to remember days like this. Because there will be plenty of days when absolutely positively nothing makes sense. I know this from experience.

I am looking forward to getting into my house in Savannah. And sometimes I am not. I go back and forth. It will be just fine. It will be better than fine. 

Thursday, September 22, 2016

Flying with Brenda Smith

In a pride when an old lion is not useful to hunt prey anymore.....they keep him around because he can still roar and frighten the others in the jungle. He is not capable of hunting, running down the prey, killing it, not allowing the pride to come eat. All he can do is roar. That is Satan. He can only roar and frighten you into not doing things God has called you to do. The louder he roars the more you sit still and do nothing. Get up and frighten him with the Word of God! He knows the Word better than You...he just doesn't obey it. Speak it loudly to him and make him roar in fear.

Tuesday, September 20, 2016

Flying even when it's just crazy enough

I have a lot going on right now. I need a project manager for my life just for the next 2 or 3 months. Okay, probably much longer but I don't want to seem totally unorganized. I will not complain. It would be so easy to whine, pout, and just sit here waiting for someone or something to save me. Yes, I know that is not how it usually works. I also know that there are two people who would love to be fretting over selling one house, buying another one, figuring out how to move, and the list of other crap that goes along with this process. And while I will tell you that all of this is pretty stressful especially since I am also running the Chicago marathon in a few weeks. But I created all of this craziness. Or at the very least I was a willing participant even though I had NO idea exactly what I was getting into. 

Rose Erkul
I have the option to stop the madness. Well, maybe not completely. Contracts have been signed. Attorneys hired. Contractors finally showing up. Boxes packed. You get the message. All of this is for my benefit. This is progress and growth. 

The opposite is happening to a very dear friend of mine right now. Last week she sent me an email explaining that her current course of treatment is not working. She had an end of life discussion with her doctor. She said that was hard. She also said that she is not giving up. She and her family are searching for the next miracle that will give her more time and allow her to have quality in her life. She asked for my prayers. She wasn't sure if the next round of chemo will leave her able to communicate. Different people react differently. 

So now I understand that all of this house-moving-anxiety ridden stuff is just something that will soon pass. It will either go smoothly or it won't. It will be alright. If my closing date gets moved it gets moved. This is not life or death. It isn't me counting down the hours, minutes, or moments of my life. This isn't me hoping for just one more sunrise. This isn't all that important in the big scheme of things. Yes, it's just crazy enough to make me question my sanity, but this would be a luxury to my friend. To have the ability to worry needlessly about life. To take a sunrise for granted. To just breathe knowing that there are many more to come.